I'm lonely so I do lonely things, loving you was like going to war, I never came back the same. You hate women, just like your father and his father, so it runs in your blood. I was wandering the derelict car park of your heart looking for ride home. You're a ghost town I'm too patriotic to leave. I stay because you're the dream I want to remember. I didn't call him back because he likes his girls voiceless. It's not that he wants to be a liar, it's just that he doesn't know the truth. I couldn't love you, you were a small war. We covered the smell of loss with jokes. I didn't want to fail at love like our parents. You made the nomad in me build a house and stay. I'm not a dog. We were trying to prove our blood wrong. I was still lonely so I did even lonelier things. Yes, I'm insecure, but so was my mother and her mother. No, he loves me he just makes me cry a lot. He knows all of my secrets and still wants to kiss me. You were too cruel to love for a long time. It just didn't work out. My dad walked out one afternoon and never came back. I can't sleep because I can still taste him in my mouth. I cut him out at the root, he was my favourite tree, rotting, threatening the foundations of my home. The women in my family die waiting, because I didn't want to die waiting for you, I had to leave, I felt lonely when he held me. You're the song I rewind until I know all the words and I fell sick. He send me a text that said "I love you so bad", his heart wasn't as beautiful as his smile, we emotionally manipulated one another until we thought it was love. Forgive me, I was lonely so I chose you. I'm a lover without a lover. I'm lonely and lonely. I belong deeply to myself.