Sometimes i feel special because i'm being single until now, i'm single and i learn, i learn so much feelings which maybe anothers woman can't feel because they already taken before 25 or maybe they had been learned earlier than me. What i have learned : we need to learn how to kiss, not only kiss in general definition but more deeper than what dictionary said, we need to learn how to hold, we need to learn why sex not only about lust but about love, we need to learn what, why, and how love works. In reality, i can't learn how to kiss someone before marriage, so i learn from movie, from book that i've been read. I learn why they kissed, and why they never feel disgusted. I learn why sometimes they do fake kisses and learn warm kisses in another case. I also learn why sex feels so heavy for some people, and so beautiful and easy for another. I'm so happy, super pasionate learn about 'this feeling' before marriage if i have a chance to marriage someday. I think in so manytimes, what i really need is not becaming good cooker for my husband, but i need to understand what is love itself, because if i understand, love will teach me how to make the best food for my husband.