sleep tight

It's a lot harder than I thought it would be. I mean, it's not like anything romantic happened between us. But I miss talking to him. Every time I come across something I think he'd like, I just wish I could call him up or send him a text. Like the other, I saw this movie, coherence. It was about parallel universes, and I just know he'd love it. That's the thing; he's the only person I know who would appreciate it the same way I do. And I wish I could watch it with him and talk to him about it. Why is that so important to me? I don't get it. I didn't even think about all this before I knew him.

"That's not important," he said.

"Then why haven't you mentioned her?" I tried to keep the bitterness from creeping into my voice. "If it's not important, why wouldn't she come up in conversation? Seems like a weird thing to leave out, since we've been talking every day -- sometimes for hours." I knew I was making a fool of myself, but I couldn't stop. "What's her name? Where did you meet her? Well, you're free to see whomever you want," I said.

"I like you. A lot. But you have a boyfriend, and we've been hanging out for weeks now. As far as I know, you haven't told him you've been spending time with me. I don't really get that." I felt tears well up behind my eyes. I turned my head away from him. The last thing I wanted was for him to see my cry. "What the fuck am I supposed to do?" he continued. "I don't know what I am to you."

"I don't, either," I blurted out. "I don't know what we are to each other. But whatever it is, I know I don't want to lose it."

"I don't, either," he said after a while. "I don't know what this is, but I like it."

"Me too."

Over the years you might have noticed that I have a little (ok a big) obsession with flower. Don't ask me why, but flower is one of life's simple pleasures that brings me so much joy. There's something so pleasing about see a cluster op glorious multi coloured flowers around you. If you are flower lover too, kindly visite my flower store at https://www.instagram.com/autumnvibes14/ thankyouuu, happy new years :D

Last day Pupud and I headed to beautiful garden called Batu Flower Garden for a natural capture energy. I had never been to Batu Flower Garden before, but after random stalking on Instagram I realised that it was quite a beautiful place, so we decided to get all dressed up to mark the occasion. 

We arrived into that place on Tuesday evening. Unfortunately the weather was on our side. Batu Flower Garden have some spot planned to capturing moments for us which meant that we actually got to try! 

I remember that good things come and so do bad things and always apologize when you've done something wrong but don't ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shinning, so we move on and take another meaningful picture.

It was a very ordinary place, the place I realised that I don't have to do anything but trust the process, trust the story, and enjoy the journey. It's doesn't really matter where we've become the finish line, the important things are the changes from this morning to when I fall asleep again, and how they happened with. An ice creams in the evening with someone beautiful, intellegent conversations at 02 pm while sharing the environment system, taking motorcycle to nowhere.

I love everything around me as a stamp collector loves his collection. Every story, every incident, every bit of conversation is raw material for me. Don't exist. Live. Get out, explore. Thrive. Challenge authority. Challenge yourself. Evolve. Become who you say you always will. Keep moving. Don't stop. Start the revolution. Become a better fighter. Just because everyone doesn't know your name doesn't mean you don't matter. Are you happy? Have you ever been happy? Did you exist or did you live? How did you thrive? Become a chameleon - fit in anywhere. Be rockstar - stand out everywhere. Do nothing. Do everything. Forget everything. Remember everyone. Care, don't just pretend. Listen to everyone. Making progress with every step you take "D

Today is 26 August 17, means you're a bachelor of Food Science and Technology.

I always feel you're special, at least for myself. Its the day when your add 1 more step to reach ur dream, the day when you reminded that your hard work LIVE in this world. The day when you reminded to be always thankful for what you have today.

But really, who are u? You are not living alone in this complicated world. Turns out, being bachelor is not that scary. Enjoy it so far. It's the time when you enjoy your choice more. It's the time when you learn how to be independent, the time that you will find what you capable of.

I believe you have ultimated goals in ur life. Like something you are really want to pursue on, whatever it takes, whichever the way is. Just keep going.

Find your lifetime travel partner, go for birtday trip, go for solo travelling, visit more exotic countries, get your international driving license, get a diving license, and visit more beach!

I told you five years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do that by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines!

Infuse your life with action. Don't wait for it to happen. Make it happen. Make your own future.Make your own hope.

Don't get stuck with labels. Don't limit yourself with labels. Don't get caught up with labels. Don't be afraid of labels. Allow yourself to become a free spirit that grows and expands in every possible direction, so that your mind is always open for changes, criticism, and differences.

Everything echoes with the voice inside our heads. The universe, it harmonized with our thoughts. Always believe that you are in control, not the other way around.

Because process is beautiful :)

thks to Diana Rikasari, Indiet

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've clean up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profit and shallow relationships.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.