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the value of living : deep explanation by Aan Mansyur

05.41

Well.... friends today's post is a special one. It's hard to believed that finally i met one of my favorite writers, Aan Mansyur. Aku masih ingat betapa senangnya aku ketika pak pos mengetuk pintu rumahku dan membawa buku ini. Aku tahu buku ini tidak dari toko buku, tidak juga secara random menemukannya di perpustakaan, tidak juga pada daftar rekomendasi buku 'best seller' di goodreads atau semacamnya. Aku mengenal buku ini pada tahun 2012 di twitter @hurufkecil. Aku sangat suka setiap post dalam akun twitter tersebut, dan aku merasa kurang jika hanya membaca kurang lebih 144 karakter setiap harinya. Aku merasa candu, dan aku senang sekali pemilik akun tersebut menjual tulisan-tulisannya dalam bentuk buku. Aku jarang sekali jatuh cinta kepada buku karena mengetahui lebih awal siapa penulisnya, aku terbiasa jatuh cinta kepada kata-kata dahulu baru aku akan mencari tahu siapa penulisnya kemudian. 

Jika kalian terbiasa berteman dengan puisi, buku-buku Aan Mansyur bisa ku bilang buku puisi terbaik di negeriku, Indonesia. Jika kalian mengenal aku, kalian pasti sudah tahu kebanyakan koleksi buku-buku puisiku adalah buku-buku puisi dalam bahasa inggris, jarang sekali aku jatuh cinta pada puisi berbahasa Indonesia, dan akhirnya aku jatuh cinta dan merasa senang - sangat senang. Tidak ada satu halamanpun yang bisa kulewatkan dalam buku ini. Judul bukunya saja bisa membuatku tidak ragu-ragu untuk membelinya.

Tujuh tahun berlalu, akhirnya aku mendapat kesempatan bertemu langsung dengan penulisnya. Rasanya? Senaaaaaaaaaaaaang! Aku benar-benar ingin mengenal lebih dekat bagaimanakan penulis buku ini, dan akhirnya aku bisa berbicara dengannya. Aku datang ke salah satu diskusi buku oleh patjarmerah - menemani kata-kata bekerja dalam puisi, aku sedikit merasa sedih karena datang terlambat. Aku mendapat kursi paling belakang, tetapi tetap bisa mendengar secara jelas setiap kalimat-kalimat yang dikatakan mas Aan. Tidak hanya di buku-bukunya, menurutku cara dia berpendapat - menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan peserta, semua kata-katanya nyaris indah seperti puisi :')

Pelajaran yang paling ku ingat adalah mas Aan dalam sehari-hari berbahasa bugis, sehingga bahasa Indonesia termasuk asing baginya, dan dia menulis karya-karya nya dalam bahasa Indonesia, dan indah, bagaimana bisa? - dia belajar..  aku masih ingat ketika salah seorang peserta bertanya..

"kenapa mas Aan ingin menjadi penulis?"

"karena sebenarnya saya malas orangnya.. saya pikir menjadi penulis bisa dilakukan sambil bermalas-malasan" - semua peserta tertawa

"bagaimana seorang pemalas seperti mas bisa menghasilkan karya-karya luar biasa dan menjadi sukses?"

"mungkin karena kebanyakan orang-orang terlalu rajin sehingga mereka tidak berhasil" - semua peserta tertawa lagi :'>

Ada beberapa pemikiran-pemikirannya yang jarang atau tidak pernah sama sekali terpikirkan oleh kebanyakan dari kita seperti (1) semakin cepat kendaraan yang kita gunakan, semakin sedikit hal yang bisa kita lihat, (2) pembaca adalah penulis kedua - penyair kedua, (3) menulis bukan hanya mengatakan sesuatu, tetapi juga memberi ruang untuk orang lain, (4) menulis ulang adalah cara untuk menulis lebih bagus, (5) bayangkan pembaca itu tidak selalu seperti kita, mereka mungkin tuli, mungkin buta - kita tidak harus selalu menulis "mustahil" untuk menjelaskan sesuatu yang tidak mungkin - mungkin kita bisa menggunakan kata "memanjat hujan"? 

ya Allah aku bahagia dapat kesempatan mendengarkan kalimat-kalimatnya secara langsung, aku seperti tiba-tiba merasakan semangat dan hidup kembali, terimakasih :')

uchi - Aan fans 1 - reta - Aan Mansyur - Neno - Aan fans 2 - alvi
terakhir : (waktu minta ttd) buku ini tahun berapa ya ci? kayaknya sudah tidak di produksi lagi  .. (saking lamanya) :'>

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networking is pain : a thought by Alexander Thian

23.15

Good morning, friends! I join at least four literacy discussions by patjarmerah this weekend! The first was "meramu sejarah Indonesia dalam novel komedi" by Adhitya Mulya, the 2nd was "bincang buku : Na Willa" by Reda Gauidamo, then "menemani kata-kata bekerja dalam puisi" by Aan Mansyur and the last "literasi digital - personal branding" by Alexander Thian (@aMrazing). In this post i will tell you what i've learn from the last author i mention before.


If you active on instagram or twitter i'm sure you already know who Alexander Thian (Ko Alex) is. He is traveller - story teller - influencer who have beautiful perspective. Becaming curious girl who wants knowing about the world more but have limited time i decide to follow him on instagram (and twitter too). I'm so happy and enjoying when he make some instagram stories about Europe (like how to get free water in France, how his feeling when finally he found lavender land, how the happy is when you get sunset in airport before fly) - not everyone can share "that feeling - that lesson - that experience" into the simple - accessible instagram stories and he does.


I got my seat 1 hour before his event begin. Imagine he finally "real" in front of me, real - real; not just on my phone, i'm nervous actually but i keep myself to act as normal as i can. If Dewi Okta Briana (my close friend) come i'm totally sure she will be super happy, but she can't and it's okay, I'll record some videos for you Wi! Oke back to the main story! Ko Alex using colourful jacket and simple pants, he look so bright. Different from previous speaker, he don't just sit on the chair but he stand, walked over to us! OMG i still can't believed it! 

First the MC introducing who is he, then Ko Alex open his section by asking audience some questions.

"who want to be rich?" - then everyone raised their hands, also me.

"who want to be famous?" - just two or three or four people, then he ask

"who want to be an author?" - half of audience

"who want becoming famous author?" - most of audience, and he ask again

"and what's wrong being famous?" - everyone laughed. 

He also ask why we do business, what drives business, what the real cord in business (cmiiw) - and the answer is a content - personal story. He said everyone can make story, but not everyone can tell the story, that's the point. Then he ask again who want become a writer, spontantly i raised my hand and he came to me! (HE CAME TO ME! CRY !!!!!)

"what kind of writer you want to be?"

"i wanna write beautiful stories and poems like lang leav"

"waaah.. who else?"

"actually i'm nervous so i can't remember well"

"i flip my body, just pretend i'm not here"

".......(trying to remember) amanda lovelace .. rupi kaur.."

"waah... berat-berat lho bacaan mbak ini (cmiiw).. then what you have done to get there?"

"i write my first book...." - all audience give me applause

"what is the title?"

"to hold what i don't understand"

"to what..?"

"to hold what i don't understand" - repeat my words, i just think i should take english speaking class soon to fix my pronunciation problem :(

"oh .. to hold what i don't understand"

"then what you have done to introduce ur book to be known by others"

"still don't have the answer yet -" - i don't know why i answer like that, actually after publishing my book by local publisher - now i'm make some proposal for Andrews McMeel Publishing and Penguin Press - add my book at good reads too - i hope it will work.

Ko Alex give me some explanations, not just for me but for all audience, at least he give 7 lessons, and the best lesson i can remember is the fact "networking is pain" - we need time - we need process. He tell us his experience about his first book. He said "i only got 10 people who were interested in my book, and the 5 of them were my friends, i realize who am i, i'm not raditya dika whom in 10 minutes his book could be sold out, but don't worry, keep working and time will pay everything"--- and i believe it :'> thank you Ko Alex .... i'm so happy spend my weekend with you and ur fans this saturday.... i will never regret telling people how i feel, spend my time with those who matter the most, i'm excited!

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long time, no talk :)

05.11

Ini udah 5 atau 6 bulan gue gak pernah nulis di blog, terus terang gue sibuk banget - banyak banget agenda-agenda secara real maupun secara perasaan tidak terprediksi terjadi tahun 2019 ini. Perasaan gue bergejolak kesana kesini seperti ombak, "life is a beach, enjoy the wave" - kemarin sempet baca itu, dan menurut gue itu benar. Enam bulan di tahun 2019 ini banyak sekali yang berubah - banyak sekali - entah gue maupun orang-orang di sekeliling gue. Gue merasa gue gak banyak berubah, tetapi mereka iya. Gue merasa benar-benar semangat belajar ini itu, gue juga seneng banget akhirnya bisa sering banget ketiduran karena kelelahan, kelelahan~ ... Beberapa bulan gue mencoba sangat sibuk - bulan berikutnya mencoba begitu slow - bulan berikutnya sedang-sedang saja, dan hasilnya gue tetap bertanya-tanya .... perasaan ini dinamakan hidup buatan bukan haha~ .. buatan adalah terencana, dan aku merencakan hidup untuk menyeimbangkan perasaan dan berharap mendapat jawaban di fase hidup seperti apa aku merasa sangat puas, dan tenang belum ada jawabannya, aku masih mencari jawaban -  karena aku mencari - aku menulis - dan - selamat membaca ..

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mengelola cara pandang di hari minggu

03.57


Hari minggu ini memutuskan untuk membersihkan taman kecil di rumah setelah beberapa minggu terakhir dihabiskan untuk menulis. Bangun tidur agak kesiangan, cuci muka, membuat secangkir susu hangat, mengambil headset, memutar musik kesukaan dan mulai berkebun. Tidak ada hal terlalu rumit dalam berkebun, pertama aku akan memantau apakah tanaman kecilku tumbuh dengan baik, kedua apakah rumputnya sudah cukup subur untuk dicabut? Aku menanam tanaman-tanaman dengan waktu tumbuh lumayan lama, seperti kaktus, sukulen, gerbera, zz plant dan lainnya, sehingga setiap aku mengeceknya setiap bulan tidak ada perubahan yang terlalu berarti, mereka selalu tampak muda :)


Lihat, mereka biasanya berubah setelah 6 bulan, kadang melihat mereka sering sedih juga karena selama enam bulan mereka menunjukkan perubahan signifikan, sementara hidupku? masih biasa-biasa aja dan itu tidak apa-apa :)

Kemudian apa yang biasanya ku temukan dan berkembang sangat cepat? Rumput liar. Ketika kamu mendengar kata rumput liar, kira-kira pikiran kamu mengarah ke arah positif, negatif atau biasa aja? Pikiran pertama yang terlintas di pikiran kamu itu kurang lebih bisa mendeskripsikan kepribadian kamu dalam memandang sesuatu. Pengalaman membersihkan rumput biasanya ku lakukan sendirian, terkadang bersama adek perempuanku, dan terkadang juga bersama ibuku. Aku termasuk orang yang sedikit tertarik dengan rumput, aku sengaja tidak membersihkannya setiap minggu karena menurutku mereka juga layak untuk hidup pada musim tertentu, rumput juga sama dengan tanaman hias lainnya, menghasilkan oksigen dan membersihkan udara untuk kita, jadi tidak ada salahnya memberi kesempatan kepada mereka untuk hidup sedikit lebih lama. Berbeda denganku, adekku selalu ingin membersihkannya setiap rumput mulai terlihat tumbuh karena dia berfikir rumput merugikan tanaman inangnya, itu akan menyakitkan bagi tumbuhan inang di sekitarnya, dan beberapa rumput mengundang ulat yang merugikan juga katanya, sementara ibuku sangat suka dengan rumput, dia menyukai rumput dan dia mencabutnya juga, sedikit tidak selaras tapi itu terjadi, setiap mencabut rumput ibu selalu berkata "ibu itu kayak rumput, kuat, bisa hidup dimana saja, tidak gampang menyerah untuk mati, dicabut pun akan tumbuh lagi"(?)

Ketiga cara pandang tersebut tidak ada yang salah kan? Menarik semenarik beberapa rumput yang berhasil ku potret <'3

akar rumput sangat panjang, minimal 2x dari tingginya

beberapa rumput terlihat tidak seperti rumput, beberapa terlihat seperti pohon kecil

jika rumput berhasil dicabut, mereka tidak mudah menyerah, mereka membawa banyak tanah bersama akarnya

jika kamu beruntung, kamu akan menemukan Ibu siput dan anak-anaknya selama membersihkan rumput, beberapa rumput meneduhkan bayi-bayi siput

Dimana pun posisi rumput berdiri di pikiran kalian, baik sebagai hal baik, hal buruk atau hal biasa aja, rumput mengajarkan kita bahwa cara pandang kita perlu dikelola. Kalian tidak perlu benar-benar memelihara rumput atau terlalu histeris mencabutnya ketika dia mulai tumbuh, tidak perlu terlalu memuji "wah rajinnya" ketika melihat tetangga kalian bersih-bersih rumput atau mengatakan "dia malas banget orangnya" ketika melihat rumput tumbuh panjang di halaman rumah tetangga. Cara pandang mereka dan kita berbeda, dan perbedaan itu indah :)

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playing with kids 2

18.53


The last post its about Ony, Alya and me. Ony and Alya is a classmate, not from same parent. In this post i will tell you my experience when I with Ony and Michele, Michele 5 years older than Ony, they are siblings. Kids always like being center of interest (most of them), they always want being number one in our attention. They easily getting jealous each other, and the jealous increase when you're siblings. I just think the competitive feeling arise when we're born. Sharing anything with our close friends more easily than with our brother/sister when we child, that is the rule, so you don't need feel surprise when someday your 2nd child born.

Ony have extrovert personality, than Michele in the middle of extrovert and introvert. Ony can call me 10 times per day and Michele maybe 1 or 2 times. I took turns playing with them, rarely together, it's not because I set it up like that, but they both rarely want to play with me together, especially Ony. Finally i meet moment, when we can play three of us. I think it will be hard, but apparently not.


This is Michele, beautiful girl who getting happy easily, for her laying down and playing with her phone all day long is not her problem, spend her time outside is okay too, she rare look sad or angry, she quietly pays attention to what we like, what makes us feel disturbed, and more. She understand people better than me even she 14 years younger than me. 


and this is Ony, cutiest girl who getting bored easily, for her laying down and playing with her phone all day long is a problem, she want game changed every hour, makes me have to think fast and creative. She express her feeling better than me. She doesn't like her swing moving slow but crying when swinging faster. Sometimes i feel confused where i should stand when with her.



Michele often fights with ony in many times, but seems understands Ony better than me. Michele know the rules she play, so she never afraid making Ony crying because she know Ony will forget it soon. From Michele i learn (1) if you see people often fighting is doesn't always mean they hate each other, even they understand each other better, (2) two are better, but three are easier.

 



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playing with kids

08.47


If you truly know about me, you will understand that i'm the girl who love celebrate everything. When i see beautiful in flower i will learn about the flower then i celebrate it, when i fall in love in color i will change my clothes and design everything around me with that color and celebrate it, when i know my close friends getting sad or sick i will come to them, giving them some surprise and we laugh together. I really love celebrate everything and the bitter fact is my family never allow me to celebrate my birthday, new years, or others celebration which usually celebrated by all people in the world. I can't celebrate my birthday not because i don't have money or time, but our religion didn't accept it. The simple answer better when i give my money to someone who really need that money or better when i spend my time to talk with Allah for everything happen throughout the age that has been given. My father always said "our Prophet Muhammad never taught us to blow out candles and  sing a song to celebrate his birthday, even he crying and praying all night long on his birthday because he realized that his age was diminishing and there are still many sins". I get the lesson that my father trying to explain, but i still want celebrate the birthday is...... maybe without any candles and songs.... i just wanna share my happiness..... and once again if you know me that well, i'm a creative girl and i don't give up easily... so sometimes i celebrate my mom, my father birthday... they are happy and never realize that i celebrate their birthday.... without a song and candles and i hope Allah forgive me at that case. This story is just opening and in this post i wanna tell you how i spend my birthday this year without party but playing with this kids :'>


First their name is Ony (9 yo) and Alya (10 yo), they are my nephews. They are so childish like who i am, they like spending their time to watch some movie just like what i do, if they want something they said to me clearly, no doubt or fear, they never think to much what i will think, i don't know that's good or not. They can't stop playing all day long, then i learn that being mom need "super extra time" to playing with kids and it's impossible to when i'm being full time hospital pharmacist - maybe from now i should preprare another main job when someday i'm being a real mom :p


Having fun with kids sometimes feel so easy but uneasy path following too, their mood increase and decrease so fast, and i still don't know it's good or not, seeing them just like seeing me. My mood never stable, i'm so easy to be happy and sad. Because i feel they are the mirror of me, i can't stop smile everytime i playing with them..... and start learning maybe becoming mom will make you stress all day long but you feel happy at the same time..






Kids always look cute even they are sleep





After 7th days spend my time with that kids i learn (1) kids are fun, they never afraid playing anything because they not thinking or worrying too much about the risk, curiosity is their best friend, (2) whatever their personality is they will love romantic movies, don't afraid spend your night watching the princess switch with them, they will love it, don't worry about kissing scene, i teach them to close their eyes every the scene happen :p , (3) they will happy if you bring something for them after work, like ice cream or flower, you don't need think about the prices, they never ask, they don't need the expensive one, so don't waiting for payday to make them happy, (4) to be friend with jealous feeling is easy for them, so never ever think to get the 2nd child if your first kid not happy enough, (5) you should be creative person when you with kids, because they feel bored quickly, (6) when you feeling lost in adult stage, playing with kids once in a while, even when they are not your children, they will give you so many lessons.

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your dreams matter. period.

17.22


When I was graduated, so many job opportunity in front of me. From the first time i learn in college, i know what subject that i love the most. What i love is different with what i can past easily, easy to get the best score. Because college is not for free, i follow the rules, the fastest rules to graduate as fast as i can. College not guarantee your future, but college is one of "a must" term in nowadays. College is complex games. There will be a fake lecturer who harness their college students for their research project, and more, and if you lucky you will be meet a rare lecturer who is real researcher. Why i can say that? because the "real" one, will do the project, will write, making idea, and the important point is "applied" the result for world, for better life, not for the new "tittle" at the end of their name, i think the "tittle" should be just extra bonus necessarily.

College make me learn a lot about people, about what "success" mean in their definition. But i think it's not me at all. They said becoming success is being a head of the hospital pharmacy installation or being a part of biggest pharmaceutical company and more, and the most bitter reality is the more success you are the little time you have. So Sad.

Money is the simple answer of their final definition about success. The more money you get, the more success you are. I'm not denying that i need money too, but i need money to survive from life, to support my dream, so i follow the rules they made. Oh yeah, still in my head, I never understand with people who like save their money, but they don't know for what the money for. I choose the job which at least can fulfill my needs, and give me enough time to do what i wanna do. Okay, the second questions is time. If i have so many time? what will i do? Is it true that i need a lot of free time? 

Basically, i don't really like laying all day long in my bedroom, because my neck will gotta sick. I don't like watching tv from morning till night too, or having long conversations with my family. Getting busy is my best friend, but not busy for other people business, but busy with my world, with myself. As your expectation i really like to write, so i need time to write, write my books, and the good news is after two years of hectic works in hospital, stolen some time to write, finally i got my first book finish in this Desember! Can't wait to meet you in my book tour! <'3

This is the power of the dreams itself. You need your dreams, because they are matter. Your dreams is your compass in this complicated world. Your dream will guide you to manage your money and time better. You need a big dream, the dream that will not be washed away when flood come. If having a house and cars is your dream, i'm sorry to say that your dream not big enough. Happy holiday and happy new years everyone! 

with love, uchi

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my colorful 2018

23.33

So in the last January 2018 i create "colorful girl" into my life theme, not enjoying all colors at once, but i learn those colors one by one! In my imagination it will be red in january, then blue in february, yellow in march and so on, but it didn't 100% happen in reality. I'm too busy in 2018, didn't have fix schedule, so i can't explore 24 colors that i planned before.


Based on color code personality test i'm a red personality. Red mean i'm motivated by power. I seek productivity and need to look good to others. Simply stated, reds want their own way. Red like to be in the driver's seat and willingly pay the price to be in a leadership role. Reds value whatever gets them ahead in life, whether it be in their careers, school or personal life. What reds value, they get done.


Reds like to be right. They value approval from others for their intelligence and practical approach to life, and want to be respected for it. Reds are confudent, proactive, visonary, arrogant, selfish and insensitive. For a better relationship with red you must (1) present issues logically, (2) be direct and specific, (3) support my decisiveness, (4) respect me and (5) verbalize your feelings, and you must not (1) embarrass me in front of others, (2) argue emotionally and (3) take my arguments personally.

what if i like more than one color?


You can choose the color you like not the color that reflect your personality, off course you need a test if you wanna know what the real color you are. Because my test said that I'm a red, it doesn't mean i just only like the red one. I still be free to pick white, black, purple, and more!





So why i choose 'colorful girl' as my theme in this year? Because i wanna see everything as beautiful as how the colors works. 2018 is not about me, me and me, not only about the red. The colors you dislike can tell you a lot about yourself too, often reflecting your weaknesses and vulneralbilities. Your most disliked color will releate to areas in your life that need to be given attention or past hurt that need to be healed :')

Color Psychology said surround yourself with the colors you love, either by wearing them or using them decoratively in your environment. They will empower you to be true to yourself, to show your true color. Always use a small amount of other colors with your favorites to keep energies and behavior balanced. So i think i should discover and having fun with all colors as my 2018 uncompleted homework for 2019!

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finally!!

16.46





Akhirnya! Alhamdulillah versi inggris buku pertamaku akhirnya selesai juga <'3 akhirnya selesai setelah revisi berkali-kali, dan dibaca berkali-kali <'3 ........ mimpiku gak sampai sini, ada banyak banget mimpi menunggu di depan! Mungkin membutuhkan beberapa  minggu untuk proses percetakan, selama proses proofreading uda selesai insyaAllah udah mudah, karena dalam membuat buku yang paling berat itu proses proofreading karena harus dibaca berkali-kali untuk meminimalis kesalahan yang mungkin terjadi, Alhamdulillah prosesnya sudah selesai! Sekarang saatnya penerbit yang bekerja mulai dari ngelayout, tata letak sampai pendaftaran ISBN saya serahkan kepada penerbit, dan tugasku sekarang adalah belajar bagaimana submit bukuku ini ke Netflix <'3

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how if i make a reading class?

16.11

The last few days i'm thinking about how if I and Annie create a book reading class every weekend. I have a good news from 1st december my hospital allowed me to get day off on saturday and sunday, its mean i can manage my time better. Aaaaaand the bad news i should work on 2nd shift 5 days non stop per week, and work on 1st shift 5 days non stop for the next week, 2nd shift 5 days non stop again for the next next week, 1st shift days non stop again for next next next week, this is my new daily works cycle! (remek, ter-lalu lelah, apalagi kalo si boss mintanya yang shift siang dateng jam 12:30, wagelah sih, aku gamau). Working 8,5 hours per day wirhout rest time? Sorry Sir i should cut your rules, i will make my own rules, i need my right for an hour's rest, so i will be there and ready to work at 13.30 :) ! Okay back to the topic, because i love reading and Annie too, and we read so many books this year, so we wanna share what we had been read to you guys! For the reading class we have some plans! Can't wait to meet Annie this week <'3

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what makes my eyes tired but feel so happy

03.18

The good news is finally i finish my first novel and already sent the Bahasa version to local publisher. What i do right now is still write the english version, yeah i write 2 versions! Moreover i write my 2nd books too! My first book is fiction, a novel! If you are romantic story lover, i hope you will love it! In my book except love you can learn about life too, about simple little things that maybe you miss! Aku aja yang nulis baca berulang-ulang (bukan karena revisi aja), yeah i fall in love with my first book <'3, oh iya, i write it super simple, i cut a lot of words and i hope you can understand it easily! Rasanya uda gasabar buat megang bukunya secara nyata <'3

yang pengen aku ceritakan nulis itu jadi lebih mudah kalo buku pertama uda selesai, karena jadi tahu alur nulisnya, gabuka tutup EYD lagi, hihihi, selain kemarin sempet survey di instagram calon pembaca pengennya dicetak dalam bahasa apa, 67% memilih inggris dan 33% menjawab membeli dua-duanya jika aku bikin dua versi, ak nulis bahasa inggris krn pengen tahu hasil belajar selama setahun ini apakah menghasilkan, apakah bisa dipahami, walaupun versi bahasa inggrisnya kolaborasi ama alvi juga editingnya, but it was nice!