pelajaran hidup

strength

04.06

walaupun sempat berkomitmen akan selalu menulis blog dalam bahasa inggris, tapi kali ini pengen nulis dalam bahasa Indonesia, kangen!
Akhir-akhir ini kondisi di rumah tidak stabil, Ibu suka marah-marah, sedikit-sedikit marah, tapi seneng selalu punya Eka yang menampung ketika sudah tidak kerasan di rumah, dan ada Bude yang selalu sedia makanan ketika mau berhemat, tapi lebih seneng lagi dapat pelajaran dari mas Putu.
Beberapa orang memang sering memotivasi orang lain tanpa dia sadari, ya mungkin masnya sendiri gasadar kalau memotivasi orang lain, motivasi tidak langsung dari cerita-cerita kehidupannya, terutama soal bagaimana kita bersikap kepada seorang Ibu, sebenarnya kalau mendengar permasalahannya, masalahku jadi berasa tidak ada apa-apanya, lucu, kalo cerita. Beberapa teman cowo, kebanyakan kalau bercerita selalu Ibunya baik, tidak ada masalah, sehingga aku merasa mungkin aku saja yang lemah, jadi masalahnya terasa berat, tetapi kadang kalo mendengar mas Putu bercerita apa adanya, terasa lebih jujur dan apa adanya, menurutku itu poin nya.

beautiful hello

discovering autumn vibes

05.06


A few weeks back I, Oky and Muti was playing around my home to take some gorgeous pictures. I'm SO glad because Oky and Muti brought so many nice memories and gave all the warm feels :')

Talking about the process, it's not always easy. Sometimes I always considered to be very personal, but I've learned that sharing about my idea can be very helpful to other people. Oky share the idea that anything is possible when you put your mind to it. While Oky capturing autumn vibes project, my underlying feeling was too scared, but feel the fear and do it anyway. We looking forward to where we going. It took us around five hours to get perfect shots, and it was incredible! If like me you're fan of photography and flowers then you will know just how valuable that weekend really is. I'm so excited to be on. Oky is an amazing photographer for my project!


my personal life

out of my mind

23.43


I would love to write something, maybe a book. I want to travel to a small town someday one with fir trees and snowcapped mountains. Then I would spend an entire winter writing to my heart's content.

sastra uchi

you two don't have anything

23.19

It's a lot harder than I thought it would be. I mean, it's not like anything romantic happened between us. But I miss talking to him. Every time I come across something I think he'd like, I just wish I could call him up or send him a text. Like the other, I saw this movie, coherence. It was about parallel universes, and I just know he'd love it. That's the thing; he's the only person I know who would appreciate it the same way I do. And I wish I could watch it with him and talk to him about it. Why is that so important to me? I don't get it. I didn't even think about all this before I knew him.

sastra uchi

the good conversation

18.03

"That's not important," he said.
"Then why haven't you mentioned her?" I tried to keep the bitterness from creeping into my voice. "If it's not important, why wouldn't she come up in conversation? Seems like a weird thing to leave out, since we've been talking every day -- sometimes for hours." I knew I was making a fool of myself, but I couldn't stop. "What's her name? Where did you meet her? Well, you're free to see whomever you want," I said.
"I like you. A lot. But you have a boyfriend, and we've been hanging out for weeks now. As far as I know, you haven't told him you've been spending time with me. I don't really get that." I felt tears well up behind my eyes. I turned my head away from him. The last thing I wanted was for him to see my cry. "What the fuck am I supposed to do?" he continued. "I don't know what I am to you."
"I don't, either," I blurted out. "I don't know what we are to each other. But whatever it is, I know I don't want to lose it."
"I don't, either," he said after a while. "I don't know what this is, but I like it."
"Me too."

beautiful hello

autumn vibes

01.29


Over the years you might have noticed that I have a little (ok a big) obsession with flower. Don't ask me why, but flower is one of life's simple pleasures that brings me so much joy. There's something so pleasing about see a cluster op glorious multi coloured flowers around you. If you are flower lover too, kindly visite my flower store at https://www.instagram.com/autumnvibes14/ thankyouuu, happy new years :D

i go to places

so many beautiful things!

07.40

Feel like now I am in Rest Area of my life. I want to enjoy every breath of my life. I want to do everything I want to do. I want to take a rest for a while. Without any target, any purposes, and any limitation. I want to talk more with stranger, I want to see concerts i've never seen, I want to travel to place I always dream about, I want to hear more upbeat song, I want to sing out loud, I want to wear fancy dresses, I want to take meaningful picture, I want to taste new food, I want to dive in sea, I want to see more stars, sunset and sunrise, Indit told us.

Last day Pupud and I headed to beautiful garden called Batu Flower Garden for a natural capture energy. I had never been to Batu Flower Garden before, but after random stalking on Instagram I realised that it was quite a beautiful place, so we decided to get all dressed up to mark the occasion. 

We arrived into that place on Tuesday evening. Unfortunately the weather was on our side. Batu Flower Garden have some spot planned to capturing moments for us which meant that we actually got to try! 



This is waaaaay harder than it looks but I actually really enjoyed it!
I remember that good things come and so do bad things and always apologize when you've done something wrong but don't ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shinning, so we move on and take another meaningful picture.




It was a very ordinary place, the place I realised that I don't have to do anything but trust the process, trust the story, and enjoy the journey. It's doesn't really matter where we've become the finish line, the important things are the changes from this morning to when I fall asleep again, and how they happened with. An ice creams in the evening with someone beautiful, intellegent conversations at 02 pm while sharing the environment system, taking motorcycle to nowhere.


I love everything around me as a stamp collector loves his collection. Every story, every incident, every bit of conversation is raw material for me. Don't exist. Live. Get out, explore. Thrive. Challenge authority. Challenge yourself. Evolve. Become who you say you always will. Keep moving. Don't stop. Start the revolution. Become a better fighter. Just because everyone doesn't know your name doesn't mean you don't matter. Are you happy? Have you ever been happy? Did you exist or did you live? How did you thrive? Become a chameleon - fit in anywhere. Be rockstar - stand out everywhere. Do nothing. Do everything. Forget everything. Remember everyone. Care, don't just pretend. Listen to everyone. Making progress with every step you take "D